October 19th 2008

Sorry, i will write up previous stories later....
Yesterday i was told that either my baby girl or triplet 2 will be shifted to a normal room since they were progressing and gaining weight. Me, my wife and our family were very happy. My wife packed their clothes and made all the baby stuff ready. Suzy was really happy. I saw her smiling and all excited after a long time. We couldnt wait to hold our baby girl, atleast i will get to hold her as much as i want.We came to NICU on time.
But nothing went as we wanted. My eldest boy has some stomach problem so they are going to consult a pedriatic surgeon and they are going to stop his feeds temporarily. But, 'why my child?' i keep thinking to myself..Im so pissed off..And the worst is that my other boy and girl had lost 20g and 35g so, the doctors have decided not to shift them to the room. My heart is broken.... and i really don't know how suzy felt. Im sure she feels million times worse than me. Damn!!! But why us?
So this is the update of today for now. i dont know what to do. Im so helpless. Sometimes i feel like i should take them all out of that NICU but....
Lots of money....
We are broke and we dont have anything...Both mine and suzy's parents are also broke, and yet, they still have daughters to take care of.
My father has being trying to get money from people as loans....which i never wanted in my life. I dont know how to thank my parents...
Suzy's parents gave all their savings..... and i dont know how to thank them.
Our family is broke.... but we are still trying to hold on as we are requesting help from the govenment
HAMIDBE thanx for being there with me.... all your advices helps me. Thanx a lot.