First time i saw my babies...

After a restless 8 and half hours it was time to see my babies. I was with my father since he just came to see them and was going to go back to male'. At exactly 1900hrs they told us to enter. Everybody ran inside but their grandfather had to wait till the feeding time was over. After a two minute handwash and wearing a green coloured coat for sterilising purposes, i entered NICU.All i could hear was beeping sound from the monitors connected to the babies which shows their pulse rates BP and etc. I couldnt recognised my babies. With the help of a sister i went and saw my first and eldest triplet 1. i thought i will be happy to see them but... all i could see was blue light (photo therapy) which made my eyes irritate. His eyes were covered and taped to protect from the light. One IV connected to one hand another protene IV connected to his other hand and Lipid Iv connected to his leg probe inserted into his tummy to check his body temperature and i dont know what.........all these wires connected.As i saw my second baby he was also the same. I looked at my third baby and she was also the same.They all looked like they were under some experiment. I really don't know how to explain what i felt. I didn't want to cry... but to be strong.. just for them and my family. I knew if allowed myself to be broken, my family will be even more devastated. So i smiled...took a deep breath and yes, touched my babies. The sister came at that moment and asked me whether i wanted to see my triplet 1's eyes. They removed the tape and i saw my baby's eyes for the first time. And guess what.....i called him "dharifulhaa" hehe salhi.... and guess what..... he did open his eyes and looked at me.Suddenly the security came and told me that my 30 minutes was over. It felt like i was with them only for a second. So i went out and with the docs permission i told my dad to come in and see them. He came and he called "kaafa loabee" and this time too he opened his beautiful eyes. Bappa was very happy but he didnt touch them that much and i knew he was hiding his emotions. We were not allowed to see the other triplets' eyes.They all were very small but that didn't bother me that much.We went back to our room after another 10 minutes and yes i had to act that everything was normal for the sake of my family's happiness.. .. but deep down i was bottling up my feelings ...